Its not a pity party..its a statement of facts.

I have been in constant and mostly excruciating pain for over 10 months now. Anyone that reads my drivel regularly knows this. I have to fight with the insurance company to get treatment that is commonly accepted by the majority of insurance companies..the reason MY insurance company fights me and my doctors tooth and nail is this...

They represent my employer. Its workers compensation insurance. They have one goal..KEEP THE COSTS DOWN AT ALL COSTS. They do not care what I deal with on a daily and sometimes hourly basis. They have never talked to me. They have never approved one thing first time its requested. They make my doctor ask and ask again..the appeal process works in favor of the insurance company and the mutha fuckas know it.

I am tired of fighting for my rights to being treated in a fair and equitable manner. I am tired of being in pain all the time..I am tired of sleeping maybe 4 hours a night..being drugged up to my eyeballs just for a few precious hours of sleep. Constant pain is more debilitating than the injury itself. It robs you of your sanity, your reasoning skills and any semblance of a decent quality of life. I am tired of being medicated up to my brown eyes and the side effects that come with constantly being medicated. Its bad for my body..very bad. My doctor has stated I am a good candidate for disc replacement surgery. But try telling that to the assholes at workers compensation. Those fuckwits would rather deny me the most basic needs in order to save a buck. They make my doctor jump through hoops just get medication approved. An epidural shot of cortisone given a month apart should of provided me relief..instead..I got the shots 6 months apart..which doesnt do a FUCKING thing. Its like taking an aspirin after you have gone into pnuemonia. Its fuckwitted and god damn stupid.

Their goal is to outwait me and my doctors. If they drag their fucking heels long enough maybe we will tire of asking..maybe I will say fuck it and go back to work since the money I recieve on workers comp is a mere pittance of what I got when I worked.

There have been times when I look at all those medications and think of downing them all with a large skyy and soda. I am so tired of being in pain. I am so damn tired of this bullshit at my expense.

I want to take a gun and blow them all to hell..but I wont' I am not capable of the 3 hour drive to their offices in LA. I can't even clean my house. I can't do much of anything unless I am medicated than then I cant do anything because I am a zombie..its bullshit I tell ya.

When money considerations come before the health and quality of life for the patients..its disgusting and should be illegal. but it's the law and workers compe loves it. I do not.

Its a slow but sad news day...

Barbaro was put down today..but in order to lighten your spirits..here is a video of over 100 horses that were saved last year in the Netherlands. It took a few women to figure it out..the men were no help..as usual.

Nolan Ryan hospitalized

The man is 59 years old. He has had double heart bypass. He is the man when it comes to no-no's, pitching 7 of those suckers. He was elected to the HOF on the first ballot. He pitched in both leagues for a total of 27 friggin years.

Be well Mr. Ryan.

Parcells resigns..film at 11

The Tuna retired...again. Read all about it here. He quit in an E-MAIL!!!

Congrats Peyton, you guys pulled that one outta your ass..it was a good game to watch with one eye open. When the jackass announcers got all worked up, I would turn up the volumn and actually open the other eye.

Please God, don't let them bring back the Superbowl shuffle.

I swear I will force sharp objects into my ears and eyes if they show it even once, anywhere on TV.



Drew Brees, sorry bout your luck dude. Bush, you too. That's Reggie, not George.

The best football sunday of the year is here.

The best because its two games, unlike the Superbowl..I am going for New Orleans even though they will most likely get crushed in the cold of Chicago. Dome teams suck this time of year when they have to deal with the weather.

In the AFC..I don't give a shit. With the Chargers out of it..does it friggin matter? I guess I do harbor hope that Brady will take one up the ass as some point during the game. I just want a good game..a reason to stay anything but sober all day...and then we all get to sit around and wait two freaking weeks for the finale...can you say fuckwitted?

Enjoy your best football sunday of the season folks..its going to be interesting.

From our WTF? dept today..

Al Davis is either in the throes of alzheimers or just friggin out there..I am now convinced of this fact.

The dumb sumbitch is interviewing...wait for it..

James Lofton for the head coaching job.

Yes my dear reader..no one wants to coach the fucking Raiders so they are actually interviewing a former wide receiver for the position.

Lofton is currently the Chargers WR coach. The man is a HOF'er to be sure..but as a head coach..WTF?

They might be trying to skirt the NFL rule about minorities in coaching, by interviewing him..but for the love of god..get a grip on reality folks..this is bullshit.

NFL.com has a writeup here. This is the height of fuckwittedness I do believe...but I could be wrong..

Muhammad Ali celebrates his 65th birthday

His body is ravaged by Parkinsons, but they say his mind is still sharp and he still has his wit. I loved him for many reasons. A black man that said what he thought. A man, that although he fought for a living, refused to fight in Vietnam. I love the fact that they took his title and he won it back. But all those rope a dopes took their toll on his body..and its so sad. I hope he is happy and content with his life and his fight against Parkinson's will be another one that he wins.

Happy Birthday Champ! You were the greatest of them all.

*pic stolen from Sports Illustrated

Oh this so sucks....

The Chargers beat themselves..the Patriots just came along for the ride. How else do you explain the fact that Brady had 3 INT's but his team still won?

These are the playoffs. You should never win when your interception prone in the playoffs.

Marty sucks at time management and play calling. Going for 4th and 11 at the beginning of the game but not the end of it...He sucked down those timeouts like gatorade towards the end of the game...on stupid shit. Rivers had the playoff rookie yips on too many plays.

At the end of the second quarter..the Chargers D left the field early...at least their motivation did.

The Personal Fouls..its a whole host of things..LaDanian could not deliver the entire game no matter how damn good he is. Its a team sport..it ain't fucking golf.

Oh fucking well...

The King of Pop sued for not paying his pharma bills.

That half boy-half girl, half black-half white thing usually referred to as the King of Pop has been sued by a pharmacy in SoCal. Seems Jacko owes the Beverly Hills pharmacy over 100k.

Jesus christ in a speedo.. $100,000.00 is ALOT of Vicodin and Soma people.

What kind of nimrod doesn't pay his drug dealer?

read all about it here, including the court docs..

Its a football playoff kinda day..I am getting primed..forgive my brief post. ok, don't forgive me..suck it and deal :P

James Brown still ain't buried yet

He died before Ford did, right?

He still isn't buried..his body is stuck in limbo.

Fucking Drama..its James Brown for the love of GOD. Bury the man you fuckwits.

Then argue and fight over his money..ok ya money-grubbing bastards.

Tony Qwynn and Cal Ripken get in the HOF

Big Mac did not. See the voting..if you care...here.

Damn near unanimous for these two. My Tony..is my chest puffed up or what people? And Cal, I watched him play for a few years when I lived in MD. Ironman Ripken.

But Goose didn't make it in. Damn it all.

I got my second epidural today..technically, I got two for the love of god. I will be sleeping most of today away. Have a good day my dear reader.

With the Chargers playing their first playoff game with ol Marty at the helm this coming weekend I have some thoughts..

Marty Schottenheimers record so SUCKS in the playoffs..I mean..it REALLY sucks ass crack. Having to play New England doesn't make me feel warm and fuzzy. Ravens got the better end of the playoff deal methinks. The Chargers didn't play the Pat's this year..dammit! But, on the bright side..Chargers beat the living shit out of them last year 41-17.

Chicago Bears better tank. I got money on them tanking big time. Fuckers better not let me down..not like Rex did during the last couple of weeks in my fantasy leagues..bastard.

Wonder if Scott Norwood saw the Cowboys game tonight...

I was living on the east coast and rooting for the Bills when the NY football Giants won Superbowl XXV. It was actually Scott Norwood who lost that Superbowl. He muffed a fucking 47 yard field goal.

It crushed me..for years.

Friends would just say his name and I would come unglued. Tonight..Norwood was vindicated..sort of.

Bill Parcells' Cowboy's blew a field goal tonight that would of put them into the next round of the playoffs. Parcell's was the NY Giants coach when Norwood blew that field goal.

How does it feel Billy?

You don't have to answer that..I already know.

Best team in the NFL?

No way..the Chargers? MY Chargers? Ain't that some shit....

The worst team..Raiders..I mean they are THE worst..

The road to the Superbowl will go through San Diego..the first pick in the NFL Draft belongs to Oakland..Best and worst are Cali teams..

Interesting..to a Californian like me.

Today, the first f**king day of the year..

And my mommie dearest is in the hospital in San Diego. Now, she's been there for a week, so its not as bad as it sounds..really. My sister whom she came out to visit has said when the ol biddie gets out of the hospital, she needs to move to another relatives house..she no longer wishes to deal with mommie dearest.

Who the fuck does?

Nothing will blow your holiday mood like dealing with my crotchetty, self-absorbed, COPD-suffering mother. Believe me folks..this bitch takes the cake. She is rude, negative, condescending and really insufferable..just take my word ok? She was moved to another "care center" since she wasn't really sick any longer, as much as an over-fucking-dramatic windbag of a bitch who thinks the world rises and sets on her ass.

Think Fred Sanford but will a little more money and female.

The phone lines have been buzzin all morning: this sista, that sista..my father..and back again. Its all so hard to swallow when your watching bowl games and smoking one. I want to enjoy my day as much as I am able. I deserve it for the love of god. This woman who couldn't parent her way out of a wet paper bag wants my undivided attention when there isn't anything medically necessary right now can kiss my ass.

There, I said it.

She needs to suck it up and deal. She isn't dying yet. She pulls this every christmas/new years season. I swear as god is my witness. No one asks her to migrate to Cali each winter and live with one of her daughters and make their poor lives a living hell. But she comes out anyway.

Not my fucking house, no sir ree bob. I tell her no room in the inn..just like for poor Jesus and his mom, ya know?

It works..why change?

I hope they figure it out down there. I have never been so fucking glad to live in the agriculture capital of the U.S..the San Joaquin Valley..in my life as now.

Back to my bowl and the bowl games...