A long hot shower does wonders for your psyche.

Tomorrow I go to the orthopedic doctor..the specialist. The guy who will tell me if I can work again..I am full of stress over this..its my life, I can not be disabled..I can walk, sit and on a good day bend down. I am tired of living on med's and I am REAL tired of sleeping because I am doped up most of the time.

I had to go pick up my x-rays, so I took a shower..I love a long,hot shower..the water felt so good, so cleansing..it washed away my anxiety, my pain, it was a miracle worker. I wanted to stand there forever..till I had to go to the doc's tomorrow. With my anxiety gone, and the pain stopped for a brief period of time, I could think straight..I pondered what I was going to do if this happens tomorrow or that happens tomorrow. I enjoyed the time to just think, in the warmth of the shower. I thought about lots of things..I relaxed and felt good! That is..until the hot water disappeared..

Its hell being snapped back into reality by the lack of hot water. Its such a buzzkill.

Waiting for the x-rays to appear was a trip. Nothing like hanging out for 45 minutes then to be told..come back around 6pm..they will be waiting for ya.

They weren't waiting for me.I had to wait another 45 minutes. There was nowhere to sit, the lobby was full of the sick and the injured...afterall, it was an Urgent Care. They are one step above an Emergency Room. Maybe a half a step, a near-riot broke out over what was on the TV..A female asked to have the channel changed. The brain dead woman working the front desk said she didn't have the remote and if the female could get up there, she could change it herself. The TV was perched roughly 10 feet up in a corner of the waiting room/lobby.

So..the hispanic woman, with impeccable english I might add, went out and got a long screwdriver from her vehicle. She put the TV on the only Spanish channel on the dial. That really impressed the 25 or so anglo's sitting in the area. I was sprawled across the check-in window, glaring at the brain dead woman when I heard loud voices saying "If you want to watch spanish TV go home or go back to Mexico". Oh no, I am not in the mood for a racial argument I thought. I am hurting, I want to go home, and I do not want to worry about a small scale riot breaking out and someone falling on me or into me. My back is hosed remember? I rapped on the two-inch thick glass to get Ms. Brain Dead's attention. I advised her to check her McDonalds mirror because there was a riot about to happen over what was on the Telly. She came flying out to the waiting area and everyone started yelling. I was praying for the xray tech to show up and hand me my xrays. Ms.Brain Dead then ran back into her hole and called security. A male that sorta resembled a homeless guy in clothing and language came into the area real quickly..why the hell can't my xrays get here that fast I was thinking..The security guy was black. Color is only mentioned because it was sorta like the United Nations in there at this point, with everyone yelling at everyone else and pointing fingers and cussing up a storm in their native language. Since I know most of the dirty words in spanish I was amazed at what the Hispanic woman was calling the anglo chick that was going off on her simultaniously. The security guy was yelling that he was going to call the sheriff if everyone didn't shut the hell up and sit down. The hispanic woman got the last word, saying she would willingly go back to jail for knocking the shit out of the white woman for dissing her.

I looked over at Ms. Brain Dead..and pleaded for her to call xray again..I begged her. I started letting my eyes well up w/tears..it worked..she called xray again and they said they would be right up.

They turned off the tv right before I left. That will teach them all to bitch about whats on the tube..

I came home and took another long, hot shower. Yes, I used all the hot water again. I took my pain meds and they are now kicking in..I hope you, my dear reader have a good evening..I am checking out for awhile...after I move a bed full of cats and dogs around. I was going to scan my xrays for you, but hell, you seen one blown out back, you have seen them all right?